With men, this may seem impossible: WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! Matthew 19:26
For ten years, I secretly struggled with this eating disorder and it’s ugly friend, anorexia. As a child, I was taught right from wrong and about Jesus dying for my sins. As a young person, I got caught up in this secret destructive behavior, to escape my painful world, and try to capture an image of ‘if only I was thinner”.
The more I lost, the harder I tried, to continue, to obtain vain imaginations of this hope that almost killed me. I was killing myself trying to get there, with extreme vomiting, binging, and cutting my wrists to escape life when nothing else worked.
All the while, inside I asked GOD to heal me, and finally He did. I had to go on a journey to find out who I was, in CHRIST. Our identities are so different than the images we see on the cover of magazines. I had to surrender to GOD all control, forsake the weight scales, obsessive food pattern habits, counting numbers on jeans and jars a total devotion to HIM. Food was not my idol or GOD, but it controlled me.
A faithful woman fasted for me while I was seeking recovery, something happened. The depression broke, after 18 months it was totally gone. The monster inside was released and now today, it’s been 9 years of TOTAL HEALING and Freedom. GOD wants the same for you, don’t despair. GOD is here and real bigger than our imaginations can think. Just believe how deep GOD’s love is for us…
San Diego CA
There is hope!!!!! Because of Jesus! There is hope.