Comments on: Eating disorder: my struggle to stay alive http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/ Sun, 05 Feb 2012 23:00:47 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: Ana http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-61377 Ana Sun, 24 Oct 2010 15:50:51 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-61377 This is truly sad. When I was a teen, I had 2 friends that went through this terrible thing. As hard as it was to see them, it was even harder for them. We cried a lot as one friend really wanted to eat. She desperately wanted to eat but she could not force herself to do it. I am glad you got help and I hope you continue to get the help you need. By the way, both friends are fine now as adults. It took them years, but they both finally got over it and are living happy healthy lives with kids. This is truly sad. When I was a teen, I had 2 friends that went through this terrible thing. As hard as it was to see them, it was even harder for them. We cried a lot as one friend really wanted to eat. She desperately wanted to eat but she could not force herself to do it. I am glad you got help and I hope you continue to get the help you need.

By the way, both friends are fine now as adults. It took them years, but they both finally got over it and are living happy healthy lives with kids.

]]> By: Cindy http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-28024 Cindy Mon, 01 Feb 2010 23:42:19 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-28024 Hello Kristen, I hear and understand where you are coming from. I am 50 years old this year and have suffered with ED since I was 16 years old. I have never been happy with my body and my looks and even started cigarette smoking to lead the way of further distruction. I reached my all time low at 22, when I was in the worst shape. I was 5'3 and 93 llbs, I even thought I looked great! Wow! I was not in reality then, but over time I became a great binge and purger, sometimes I would throw up and it felt like my throat was being torn out and I was so scared! I didn't tell anyone for years, but I never tell myself I am cured, because I am not. Occasionally I will still throw up, but the episodes are few. My trigger was and still is stress. You are a wonderful person and I wish you all the best Kristen. I hope all will seek help and learn to love life and all that is out there to enjoy. Sincerely Cindy Hello Kristen,
I hear and understand where you are coming from. I am 50 years old this year and have suffered with ED since I was 16 years old. I have never been happy with my body and my looks and even started cigarette smoking to lead the way of further distruction. I reached my all time low at 22, when I was in the worst shape. I was 5′3 and 93 llbs, I even thought I looked great! Wow! I was not in reality then, but over time I became a great binge and purger, sometimes I would throw up and it felt like my throat was being torn out and I was so scared! I didn’t tell anyone for years, but I never tell myself I am cured, because I am not. Occasionally I will still throw up, but the episodes are few. My trigger was and still is stress. You are a wonderful person and I wish you all the best Kristen. I hope all will seek help and learn to love life and all that is out there to enjoy.
Sincerely
Cindy

]]> By: dayna http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-27198 dayna Fri, 29 Jan 2010 04:26:44 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-27198 , i just read your story. && i am going through the same exact thing, i have anorexia and my parents dont even know. everyone thinks i need help , but i like fitting in a size 2 from hollister, not a size 11. well your story really inspired me as a 15 year old., and im going to try to seek help, thankyou<3(: , i just read your story. && i am going through the same exact thing, i have anorexia and my parents dont even know. everyone thinks i need help , but i like fitting in a size 2 from hollister, not a size 11.
well your story really inspired me as a 15 year old., and im going to try to seek help,
thankyou<3(:

]]> By: Melissa http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-27145 Melissa Thu, 28 Jan 2010 21:40:00 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-27145 Kristen, you are very brave to come out and share your story. What an inspiration you are to other girls who may be in your shoes. Eating Disorders are not physical illness, but a mental illness that needs treatment and support. It sounds like you have a lot of support with your family. Lean on them. They're there to help. Prayers for you and your family as you struggle with this disease. You can overcome it, but it will take time and a lot of faith in yourself, your family, and most of all God. Kristen, you are very brave to come out and share your story. What an inspiration you are to other girls who may be in your shoes. Eating Disorders are not physical illness, but a mental illness that needs treatment and support. It sounds like you have a lot of support with your family. Lean on them. They’re there to help.

Prayers for you and your family as you struggle with this disease. You can overcome it, but it will take time and a lot of faith in yourself, your family, and most of all God.

]]> By: Megan http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-26946 Megan Wed, 27 Jan 2010 22:56:10 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-26946 Hi. As all of you know, it takes alot of courage to share your story. So here it goes...i am currently recovering from anorexia, something i battled with for about a year. i began to restrict my eating, but when i started college, everything spiraled out of control. the ironic part is that control is the one thing i was seeking. i didn't feel super weak and i felt happy, not as carefree as before, but certainly far from depressed. i never wanted to lose weight...i'd always been thin, but i was strong, too. I was an athlete and a dancer. My parents were worried, but i couldnt admit that i had a problem because my motive wasnt that of a "typical anorexic". i wasnt trying to lose weight, but my control disorder was apparently more serious than i realized. Only when the doctors told me my heart was barely beating and that i was going to die if i wasnt hospitalized immediately, did i realize that things had to change. It was like someone flicked on a light switch...i suddenly saw my 83 pound, dying body for what it truly was. God guided me through my hospital stay and he helps me with my recovery each day. i'm developing a healthy relationship with food and im finally loving my body again. and I'M HAPPY! imagine that?! i pray for the other kids with EDs that i met in the hospital and i will do the same for the girls that i read about on this site. God bless you all for sharing your stories! Your life is worth living...so live it! :) Hi. As all of you know, it takes alot of courage to share your story. So here it goes…i am currently recovering from anorexia, something i battled with for about a year. i began to restrict my eating, but when i started college, everything spiraled out of control. the ironic part is that control is the one thing i was seeking. i didn’t feel super weak and i felt happy, not as carefree as before, but certainly far from depressed. i never wanted to lose weight…i’d always been thin, but i was strong, too. I was an athlete and a dancer. My parents were worried, but i couldnt admit that i had a problem because my motive wasnt that of a “typical anorexic”. i wasnt trying to lose weight, but my control disorder was apparently more serious than i realized. Only when the doctors told me my heart was barely beating and that i was going to die if i wasnt hospitalized immediately, did i realize that things had to change. It was like someone flicked on a light switch…i suddenly saw my 83 pound, dying body for what it truly was. God guided me through my hospital stay and he helps me with my recovery each day. i’m developing a healthy relationship with food and im finally loving my body again. and I’M HAPPY! imagine that?! i pray for the other kids with EDs that i met in the hospital and i will do the same for the girls that i read about on this site. God bless you all for sharing your stories! Your life is worth living…so live it! :)

]]> By: Ninah http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-26917 Ninah Wed, 27 Jan 2010 12:42:01 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-26917 Hi! Thanx alot for sharing your story. I have a problem too and it's reached a point am feeling too weak, tired and dizzy. I will see a doc soon about it. Hi! Thanx alot for sharing your story. I have a problem too and it’s reached a point am feeling too weak, tired and dizzy. I will see a doc soon about it.

]]> By: Marc http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-25610 Marc Sat, 16 Jan 2010 05:27:45 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-25610 The media and consumer culture has infected most of us with the desire to look a certain way. This the same culture which promotes fast food and excessive alcohol consumption. It's great to be lean and fit, and in good shape, whatever that shape may be. Sometimes though you just have to accept things about yourself that are 'you' and make you an individual. I will exercise and try to eat right to take care of myself, but I know I'll never have that 'perfect' body. The image of perfection is not real, and if everybody looked the same then we couldn't even begin to talk about beauty The media and consumer culture has infected most of us with the desire to look a certain way. This the same culture which promotes fast food and excessive alcohol consumption.
It’s great to be lean and fit, and in good shape, whatever that shape may be. Sometimes though you just have to accept things about yourself that are ‘you’ and make you an individual. I will exercise and try to eat right to take care of myself, but I know I’ll never have that ‘perfect’ body. The image of perfection is not real, and if everybody looked the same then we couldn’t even begin to talk about beauty

]]> By: kyra http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-25127 kyra Tue, 12 Jan 2010 19:23:36 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-25127 hii. you are so brave to share your story, i am 15 and currently suffering from a severe eating disorder i have lost nearly 4 stone now. i am 5ft 2" and i weigh 6stone. i feel so bad all the time and everypne around me is suffering too. i didnt want anyone to get involved because i didnt want it to be blown out of proportion but my mum got involved and i was admitted to hospital where i lost futher weigh, i have been out of hospital since september and have lost about 2kg every week. i have the same symtoms - seeing myself and judging and exercising extensively. i know its wrong but i cant stop, i just want to be normal and not have interfering doctors ruling my life. i have 1 week left then i go to an eating disorder unit im so frightened but i have no one to talk to because no one understands and whoever i speak to says its my own fault and that i should be admitted, i want to help myself not have doctors do it for me. If people didnt judge others about their weight or shape this wouldnt happen. it may be too late for me but anyone reading this who is suffering or who wants to extreme diet please dont its really not worth it as you may feel fine at first but it takes over and destroys everything and everyone you love. Keep up the good work and we all have faith in you, wish u all the health, happiness and luck in the world. love kyra xx hii. you are so brave to share your story, i am 15 and currently suffering from a severe eating disorder i have lost nearly 4 stone now. i am 5ft 2″ and i weigh 6stone. i feel so bad all the time and everypne around me is suffering too. i didnt want anyone to get involved because i didnt want it to be blown out of proportion but my mum got involved and i was admitted to hospital where i lost futher weigh, i have been out of hospital since september and have lost about 2kg every week. i have the same symtoms – seeing myself and judging and exercising extensively. i know its wrong but i cant stop, i just want to be normal and not have interfering doctors ruling my life. i have 1 week left then i go to an eating disorder unit im so frightened but i have no one to talk to because no one understands and whoever i speak to says its my own fault and that i should be admitted, i want to help myself not have doctors do it for me.
If people didnt judge others about their weight or shape this wouldnt happen. it may be too late for me but anyone reading this who is suffering or who wants to extreme diet please dont its really not worth it as you may feel fine at first but it takes over and destroys everything and everyone you love.
Keep up the good work and we all have faith in you, wish u all the health, happiness and luck in the world. love kyra xx

]]> By: Elizabeth http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-24909 Elizabeth Mon, 11 Jan 2010 05:58:47 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-24909 I just wanted to say that I also suffered from an eating disorder, and I just recently got over it, though I still struggle occasionally. I'm really proud that you are getting help, because the hardest thing for me was even admitting I had a problem. I feel strength in you, through your words alone, and I know that you can do it. Just keep telling yourself you're beautiful. You can do it! <3 I just wanted to say that I also suffered from an eating disorder, and I just recently got over it, though I still struggle occasionally. I’m really proud that you are getting help, because the hardest thing for me was even admitting I had a problem. I feel strength in you, through your words alone, and I know that you can do it. Just keep telling yourself you’re beautiful. You can do it!

<3

]]> By: Sara http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-24063 Sara Tue, 05 Jan 2010 12:22:20 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-24063 Im very proud you shared your story, i went through the same thing expect at the time my boyfriend pass away which made things very hard for me. I've fully recovered from it and i feel great, one things about the girls in the magz, is its all air brushed, my mum used to be a model, shes told me all about it , she said it was horrible. Very one is beautiful in der own ways =] Take care i hope you get better =] xxxxx Im very proud you shared your story, i went through the same thing expect at the time my boyfriend pass away which made things very hard for me. I’ve fully recovered from it and i feel great, one things about the girls in the magz, is its all air brushed, my mum used to be a model, shes told me all about it , she said it was horrible. Very one is beautiful in der own ways =]

Take care i hope you get better =]

xxxxx

]]> By: Kaitlyn http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-21947 Kaitlyn Sat, 19 Dec 2009 12:16:42 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-21947 I am 14 now, and for me, its another story. I was a pretty skinny kid growing up. I was very active and very positive. Weight never occurred to me as a problem and I ate whatever I wanted and still remained skinny. But, every since my family moved to another country, I began eating like I normally would and rarely exercised. After three months, I had gained 20 lbs, now at 127. I feel like a fatass. And, I am scared to even go to the mall. Even my "friends" criticize me. My ex.boyfriend called me fat. I hate my life now. It seems like I am suffering from depression. I would try soo hard to lose the weight. But, nothing happens. What should I do? I dont even know who I am anymore....I want to be the "old" me.....but...how? PLEASE HELP ME..... I am 14 now, and for me, its another story. I was a pretty skinny kid growing up. I was very active and very positive. Weight never occurred to me as a problem and I ate whatever I wanted and still remained skinny. But, every since my family moved to another country, I began eating like I normally would and rarely exercised. After three months, I had gained 20 lbs, now at 127. I feel like a fatass. And, I am scared to even go to the mall. Even my “friends” criticize me. My ex.boyfriend called me fat. I hate my life now. It seems like I am suffering from depression. I would try soo hard to lose the weight. But, nothing happens. What should I do? I dont even know who I am anymore….I want to be the “old” me…..but…how?
PLEASE HELP ME…..

]]> By: jano http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-21526 jano Thu, 17 Dec 2009 16:40:05 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-21526 My heart goes out to you all, that've struggled and are still battling their ED's...I am now 49, and can just now admit having had an eating disorder--Unfortunately for me, the damage has been done, and old habits are hard to break. I still catch myself limiting my food intake or not eating at all...and if I do, I dry heave &/or vomit automatically. Just easy to do with so many years of practice. I was hospitalized at age 22-23, twice, am 6'1" tall and my weight got down to 117lbs...Might sound heavy to most folks, but not for a person of my height and build. Please take care of yourselves, stay active but make sure you're eating properly, taking vitamins and NOT diet tablets, laxatives, etc... You've only been given 1 body, 1 life...Learn to love yourselves & don't end up paying the consequences later in life as I am now doing. At your ages, 15-19...even 28, I wouldn't have listened either, but now, wish I had. My heart goes out to you all, that’ve struggled and are still battling their ED’s…I am now 49, and can just now admit having had an eating disorder–Unfortunately for me, the damage has been done, and old habits are hard to break. I still catch myself limiting my food intake or not eating at all…and if I do, I dry heave &/or vomit automatically. Just easy to do with so many years of practice. I was hospitalized at age 22-23, twice, am 6′1″ tall and my weight got down to 117lbs…Might sound heavy to most folks, but not for a person of my height and build.
Please take care of yourselves, stay active but make sure you’re eating properly, taking vitamins and NOT diet tablets, laxatives, etc… You’ve only been given 1 body, 1 life…Learn to love yourselves & don’t end up paying the consequences later in life as I am now doing.
At your ages, 15-19…even 28, I wouldn’t have listened either, but now, wish I had.

]]> By: Brandi http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-21150 Brandi Mon, 14 Dec 2009 05:28:43 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-21150 I was 15 and also struggling with an eating disorder.I felt fat and hated the way i looked.People started to notice that my body looked better and I got more attention.I tanned up to 3 times a day.I would throw up everytime i ate something,it made me feel better about myself to know that I could get that weight off just like that.I also worked out every day so I lost a lot of weight.I would often feel faint and black out.I hid it for a while but then I got caught throwing up in the bathroom.I would even do it at school when i knew that noone was in the bathroom.My family would make remarks about it too.Sometimes I wouldn't eat at all.I was a dancer and took weight pills too so that they would help me to maintain energy at practice.It continued for awhile.I had really big boobs and I hated them so much.I tried to loose the weight in my breasts as well but that never worked.My grandmother noticed my hair falling out and my skin color,but I wouldnt stop doing it.I didnt care what anyone said, I liked the attention that I got.I would often try to eat but that just made me sicker.My mother finally took me to the doctor and told her what I had been doing.I was a little underweight but not to that extreme as you were.I finally quit doing it for a while.I realized that if I kept going like the way I was that I would eventually die and I was hurting others around me as well.I am 19 now and still strugle with my weight.I am very unhappy with my body,but im not going back to doing all that again.I started walking a little in the afternoons and I do try to eat healthy.The truth is I will probably never be happy with my body.I wasn't happy with it back then,I was always trying to find something wrong when I was just fine.You just try to stay positive and eat when your hungry and stop when your full.Your story sounds alot like mine,but I know that you can overcome it and move on with your life.Don't worry about what other girls look like and dont compare yourself to anybody else.Why would you want to look exactly like somebody else when someone out there probably thinks your perfect just the way you are!!!!! Love,Brandi I was 15 and also struggling with an eating disorder.I felt fat and hated the way i looked.People started to notice that my body looked better and I got more attention.I tanned up to 3 times a day.I would throw up everytime i ate something,it made me feel better about myself to know that I could get that weight off just like that.I also worked out every day so I lost a lot of weight.I would often feel faint and black out.I hid it for a while but then I got caught throwing up in the bathroom.I would even do it at school when i knew that noone was in the bathroom.My family would make remarks about it too.Sometimes I wouldn’t eat at all.I was a dancer and took weight pills too so that they would help me to maintain energy at practice.It continued for awhile.I had really big boobs and I hated them so much.I tried to loose the weight in my breasts as well but that never worked.My grandmother noticed my hair falling out and my skin color,but I wouldnt stop doing it.I didnt care what anyone said, I liked the attention that I got.I would often try to eat but that just made me sicker.My mother finally took me to the doctor and told her what I had been doing.I was a little underweight but not to that extreme as you were.I finally quit doing it for a while.I realized that if I kept going like the way I was that I would eventually die and I was hurting others around me as well.I am 19 now and still strugle with my weight.I am very unhappy with my body,but im not going back to doing all that again.I started walking a little in the afternoons and I do try to eat healthy.The truth is I will probably never be happy with my body.I wasn’t happy with it back then,I was always trying to find something wrong when I was just fine.You just try to stay positive and eat when your hungry and stop when your full.Your story sounds alot like mine,but I know that you can overcome it and move on with your life.Don’t worry about what other girls look like and dont compare yourself to anybody else.Why would you want to look exactly like somebody else when someone out there probably thinks your perfect just the way you are!!!!!
Love,Brandi

]]> By: Lianne Netardus http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-21045 Lianne Netardus Sun, 13 Dec 2009 03:17:47 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-21045 Kristen, I will say a little prayer for you. If you want people to look at you and think to themselves that that's what they wish they could look like, there is a way to do it. You don't need a magical diet pill, who knows what that will do to your body in the long run. I may be wrong, but your story sounded like you would beat yourself up after eating, and may still do. The first step to being truly healthy is to NOT feel guilty. One way to do that would be to eat something you know is healthy. If you only eat healthy whole food items, you really could eat all day and weigh in at your healthy weight. Not only that, but your skin will start to look good, your hair will grow strong, and you will feel better than ever. (Plus reduce your risk for cancer in the future.) Best of all, people will wonder how and why you look so amazing. Some foods you can get nutrients from and not feel guilty for are any fruit, any vegetable, and white fish. Nuts, like cashews, will give you the protein you need. You can do this girl, i know it. live strong. -Lianne Netardus Kristen,
I will say a little prayer for you.
If you want people to look at you and think to themselves that that’s what they wish they could look like, there is a way to do it. You don’t need a magical diet pill, who knows what that will do to your body in the long run.
I may be wrong, but your story sounded like you would beat yourself up after eating, and may still do. The first step to being truly healthy is to NOT feel guilty. One way to do that would be to eat something you know is healthy. If you only eat healthy whole food items, you really could eat all day and weigh in at your healthy weight. Not only that, but your skin will start to look good, your hair will grow strong, and you will feel better than ever. (Plus reduce your risk for cancer in the future.) Best of all, people will wonder how and why you look so amazing.
Some foods you can get nutrients from and not feel guilty for are any fruit, any vegetable, and white fish. Nuts, like cashews, will give you the protein you need.
You can do this girl, i know it. live strong.
-Lianne Netardus

]]> By: Alex http://blog.mamashealth.com/2009/11/24/eating-disorder-my-struggle-to-stay-alive/#comment-19874 Alex Sun, 06 Dec 2009 05:16:25 +0000 http://blog.mamashealth.com/?p=1580#comment-19874 Thanks for sharing your story. I've be suffering with an ED for 13 years. (I'm 25 now). I wish I'd gotten help sooner. I'm hoping to go inpatient next week b/c I cannot go on like this. Ed WILL ruin your life. If you can go inpatient do it. I recommend it sooner rather than later. You're worth it!! With love, Alex Thanks for sharing your story.
I’ve be suffering with an ED for 13 years. (I’m 25 now). I wish I’d gotten help sooner. I’m hoping to go inpatient next week b/c I cannot go on like this. Ed WILL ruin your life. If you can go inpatient do it. I recommend it sooner rather than later. You’re worth it!!
With love,
Alex

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